The only plan
I ever made
For life after 30
Was planning
Not to make it there

I’ve lived every minute
Of my life
On the razor’s edge
Without a care
If I lived or died
“Live fast,
Die young,
Leave a beautiful corpse"
Could there possibly be
A more idiotic catchphrase? Yet there I was
Barely surviving
Day to day
On this dictum

Now, afraid and alone 
At 2:00 in the morning 
With my heart beating 
To the tempo
Of a speed metal song 
With the darkness 
Calling to me
Pulling me down
As my blood 
Turns to ice 
And my life
Flashes before my eyes
My panicked brain
Overflows
With the faces of my mother and father and brother and sisters and the woman I’ve loved and wanted to love and couldn’t love and tried to love and hurt and was hurt by and cheated on and was cheated by and the children I’ve had and the ones I could have had and the friends I’ve made and kept and the ones who’ve betrayed me and the ones I’ve betrayed and the ones who’ve fallen away and disappeared and the ones I need to talk to just one more time and the things I’ve done and those I’ve yet to do and the ones I was supposed to do and the ones I would do, God I promise, if I could just live through this night, I swear to you, I will do, I will do, I will do.
The same four words
Are forced from my lips
Again and again and again
Till they become a song
The anthem of my soul
The song for the ages
Simple but perfect in it’s simplicity
The only song I’ve ever known
C’mon everybody
Put your hands in the air
Sing it with me now
I want to live I want to live I want to live I want to live I want to live I want to live I want to live I want to live I want to live I want to live I want to live I want to live I want to live I want to live
Just
One
More
Day